I THINK YOU BETTER LEAVE
TIME'S UP
TIME TO RECEIVE
I THINK YOU BETTER LEAVE
GOTTA GO GET UP
ON OUT THE DOOR
I THINK YOU BETTER LEAVE
GO WALK A MILE
AWAY FROM ME


They call me the Weepin' Willow
Laying my head on that tear stained pillow
I'm what they call a Melancholy Baby
Ain't no fluke and don't mean maybe
I've just been put here to cry
And that's until the day I die
No use fighting
It's been a hell of a trip
Don't you say my name
Like it been some kind of game
The choice is still mine and still remains
For sorrow, love, or ill gotten gains

Hostess Cupcake Blues

He goes to Chicago

Spend $300 on a room and a woman

He comes back with $1.50 cupcakes for my birthday

He says don't you see

That shows how much I love you

He bought her fine drinks and meal fit for a king

When he come back home

All I got was these frosted things

Well I got them Hostess Cupcake Blues

That's all I got from him  Man

7 years with that man and 

That's what I mean to him

He says you don't like what I give you

You talk too much

He's out giving roses and candy

To that new girl on his list

Well I got them Hostess Cupcake Blues

That's all I got from him

7 years with that man

That's all I mean to him

I'm a throwaway

A cheap ghetto woman to him

I don't get jewelry or fine wine

But I got those Hostess Cupcake Blues

I forgot to roll it on today

Yes I forgot to roll it on today

Should I run?

Should I hide?

Or back home will I ride?

Cause I forgot to roll it on today!

What a sin

What a shame

We know that she is to blame

There ain't no doubt about it

That smell is comin' from her armpit

Let's run

Let's hide

I must confide

To her I will not sit beside

IF YOU'RE GONNA RUN
KNOW WHAT YOU'RE RUNNING FROM

I know you always hated me

That's now painfully clear

It doesn't matter what you felt

This heart spell knows no fear

My minds been placed on red alert

What's got me I don't know

But quick relief could save this heart

Or else I've got to go

My love for you will always last

Though I'll not see you again

So place me in your past so far

But I'll just be around the bend

My heart is yours

Crush it in your grip

Leave a painful memory
My taste upon your lips

I let you dupe me once

But I still didn't learn

I let you dupe me once more

And next time I'm gonna burn

I let you dupe me again

And now I've been warned

So I'll let you dupe me no more

As sure as I am born

The fuse that you lit

Still burns my heart

Flaming it's way

Towards the trouble it starts

If I lose control

And I let it explode

The payment for losing

Is right down the road

So give me my muzzle

My blindfold and plugs

I don't want to be

Just another of your drugs

I'm not going to take more of your pulling out rugs

If I can't find the strength

To do it on my own

I'll have to walk out 

of this unhappy home

Because you walked in the door

With that look in your eye

Enough to scare apples out of the pie

Now the pickin and chippin is about to begin

If I had any sense I would not try to win

Poem of a 5 year old

There were 3 cowgirls

3 Mom's and Dads

They went into a bar

and had some banana splits and rootbeer floats

They they went home and had a great big bubble bath

And some turkey

And then they went out to play

by Emily

I'm going to feel sorry for myself today

Because I can't have my way

I'm going to kick and scream

Stick my lip out

I'll yell and fight

Cry and pout

Play me a song about love, peace and kindness
Hatred caused a lot of bad things regardless
Cash and crummy deals, thrown outs
Bent old wheels  played a lot
About cryin' times again
If I care about homes I won't go alone
Crashed and heartaches gone along my friend
Dread the lot of empty dreams
Chased one for too long it seems
Crazy nights longing for someone else
Play me a song about love, peace and kindness

Like the pony with a man on his back

I got the feeling you're a party girl

Special in her own little world

And I can't seem to get rid of my belly

And I can't date a man who is prettier than me

We are the angels work albeit

And I bet they get pretty darned tired of it

We sure don't do what they want us to

Why is that? I must say to be out every Friday night and some Saturdays

We are being rebels

Meeting ourselves over and over again

like we're supposed to do

Don't fight it  I tell you try

Feel where the river takes you

Flow into it

Mold and twist until it breaks you

Are you man enough

Master baiter man

man or child

childman 

manchild

More than anything
I love the dream of you
Everyday and every way
To feel the dream of you
Constant pulsing endlessly
To touch the dream of you
Bleed me dry
To please the dream of you
To be the slave of the dream of you
Befriend the dream of you
Lay next to the dream of you
Dance with the dream of you
Hold on tight to the dream of you
Sing and play the dream of you
Lay down the dream of you for the dream of me


It was a sundown snow
It came as fast as it went

All my friends drink beer like

vultures picking clean the dead

TEMPTATION

Her urges got the best of her

He's out runnin 'round

TEMPTATION

There's a spell abounding

It's lain it's cloak over my shoulders

TEMPTATION

A yearning for lips to kiss

and a body to caress

TEMPTATION

Everywhere you'll find it

You can't run away

TEMPTATION

It's in our eyes, the wanting

the emptiness fulfillment

TEMPTATION

I want you, you want me

If only we were alone

TEMPTATION

It really doesn't matter who

Amongst a sea of faces

TEMPTATION

Desire haunts deep within the flesh

Past experience guides you

TEMPTATION

You're hooked, addicted after the first

All conscious choice is lost

TEMPTATION

You will never be free of me
You got lucky that day you came to be
I will never leave you alone
For you are mine and mine to own


She's going where people gonna treat her right
She's going home

She took off for Texas one day
Said she had to get away
Said that she had had enough
Couldn't take no more of the stuff

She's going home to Texas
On a big jet plane
She's going home
It's going to take away the pain
Moved on down to Houston town
She's gonna put up another fight
She's done with hurting on the plain


It was all a dream I had one Saturday morning
Gloria Estefan made me cry and I don't know why
They told me it was good
That what I did could
Make them feel the way
They had wished for so long a day
It was all a wish
I had because I felt like shit
And I said to myself  I am shit
I can't I move and groove
Edgar Cayce said it wasn't time yet
Eat your folic acid and shut up
Because you are just a vessel
Full of love you sit on a pedestal
Vestal virgin Mother Earth pray
Till dawn with me for the babies
and all the dead babies   All waiting
Waiting to come back   To play with
toys and be happy.
It isn't a question for you to ask
All but that.  I want the truth
The real truth   I'm ready    Help me

I've wanted you for so long
I don't know how to be free
I've filled my mind with your sweet kiss
On my lips imagery


It's been a long time since I've been
free of your song

You lassoed my heart for so long
It'll take my song away; Freedom
left a long time ago

So tell me now I'll never see
you again.  Or I've never
seen at all who you are
or where you've been

I'll walk away and close my
door without a long look back to even the score
Which way I'll go
I don't know
But I'm lying when I say
You're not in my dreams

So goodbye and place me at the
bottom of your list, of so long
so far, so gone bye bye lovers

I'll pray for the key to this ball and chain
But no way can I ever be free
Take me Take me in my dreams


We're walking on some new ground
Not certain where we're bound
But each step feels right
Good sweet lovin' shining bright
Crystal clear love for each other
Know and seeing each one as brothers
Solid devotion
It rings of a new era
Of love and peace and kindness forever

CRASH BANG   HERE WE GO AGAIN

OH TELL ME BABY WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN

CRASH BANG  THIS LOVIN'S MIGHT HARD

WE BREAK OUR HEARTS EACH TIME THE FIGHTIN STARTS

CAN'T WE PLAINLY SEE

THAT OUR LOVE IS TRUE?

WHY MUST WE PUNCH AND BUST EVERYTHING IN THE ROOM

CRASH BANG   LOOK OUT FOR THAT TREE

IF ONLY LOVE WASN'T SUCH A MYSTERY

Today is the tomorrow

We talked about yesterday

You've got me saying things I don't mean
And meanin' things I don't say
Yesterdays tomorrow
And tomorrow's yesterday
I wish I was beside you
Snugglin warm and tight
But a woman to you is cross and cold
Just lookin for a fight

Fresh and sharp you are
Your glance cuts like a knife
Straight through my heart
I'll fight with you come day or night
And at daybreak long to hold you tight



I've held out for just too long
Hoping to come back home
Crying my emptiness out
In songs about she done him wrong
But crying won't do no good
My pillow just feels like wood
I lost what I never had
And oh it hurts so bad

Why did you go away

I think about you everyday

Praying that things could be different

But what else can I say?

Lost is my hope for you

I don't know what to do

Emptiness fills my life

If only I could be your wife

And just in case you're listening to me

Try and touch your heart to see

That I'm not telling vicious lies

Oh won't you look into my eyes

I'm calling out your name all night

Dreaming just of your true sight

Cause you're all I've got to call my own

Please don't leave me here alone

Tomorrow will be different

I'm gonna change

Today is gone and will not come again

Except for in my dreams

Will it always be one day at a time?

Can I take a break and go on cruise control?

Tomorrow will be different

I'm gonna change

The pressures getting higher

The temperatures getting hotter

Tops gonna blow off

Ain't no comin down

Tomorrow will be different

I'm gonna change

Left to tackle another day

Fresh with new ideas

Hold me back for one more second

I might ricochet

Tomorrow will be different

I'm gonna change

Take my love
Feel my love
Breathe my love
Be my love

Raise your glass - Toast bright sunshine

It's alright Mama - Blood tastes like wine

Jesus  you could've loved me

But you never will

Jesus you could've wanted me

I guess I wonder still

Hearts and faces

Times and locations

Strip me down

Like I've got no sensation

I'm burning the candle at both ends for you

This dream is killing me

It's taking me away

It's jerking me all around

But I've nothing left to say

Won't you take me to your world

The places that you love

Share you dreams with me

Give your heart a shove

I want to hold your face

To hold it in my hands

I saw you coming through the crowd
I wanted you to say out loud
I love you  I love you
Take me away

And then I saw you walk away

My heart went thump

I couldn't take it

When I knew you wanted me too

The love between me and you

Will never happen I know it's true

But across the miles

When I close my eyes

It's you I see, that makes me smile

I lie alone here everynight

Without your arms to hold me tight

But I'll never know just how they felt
A love like yours was mean to last
But me my life it's just too fast
And I know I'll never settle down

That love between me and you

Will never happen I know it's true

But across the miles

When I close my eyes

It's you I see, that makes me smile

Well you left the gate ajar
And I'm walking out and not looking back
All I see is clear skies ahead
Gone are the fences that imprisoned my mind and heart
My head is free of your dream filling it every night
There's a crack in that hold you have on me
Freedom straight ahead

I learned a lot about playing games

From a lot of men, I don't remember names

I thought I'd try some of those games on you

But it seems those games started playing me too

Well we know just what we've seen and what we've bled

It's not always what we mean or what we've said

When you killed him
You killed me
He and I were meant to be


He is FOR me
For now

Says he's gonna love
Gonna make me smile

Says he's gonna love me
Make my heart go skip

Gonna take me for a ride
In his rocketship

She used to be pretty
Now she's just used
He lost her today and he's feeling confused
But she is gone for good
And she's taken all she could
And she used to be pretty
Now she's just used

He can't leave her things alone
She longs for privacy
The only place she goes
Is out to get groceries

The bills were due yesterday
She seems to pay and pay and pay
But she used to be pretty
Now she's just used

Unhappiness is her name, the circles are under her eyes
She longs to be free, away from all those lies
Nobody takes a second look
She's closing that old book
But she used to be pretty
Now she's just used

It's wearing on her soul, wishin she had a maid
California's lookin good just to get away
There ain't no easy way out
Nobody knows what she's about
Because she used to be pretty
Now she's just used
Oh she used to be pretty
Now she's just used

Hang me up and beat me with the dream of life
But I will always love you through sorrow or strife
Your images alone haunt me all through the night
And wake me my lover with dawn's early light
Freedom from this, it seems will be hard to find
For I dearly love you, inside of my mind
Yes, my soul is not willing to leave you behind

The ability of stronger men
to subtract life from the equation of women
has been an overriding fact since the
beginning of human kind.  The prize
goes to the highest bidder and when
no longer wanted or needed
destroyed like a dog.  Oh what a shame
oh what a thief. to steal something so
sacred.  the price to pay remains
to be seen. between Heaven and Hell.
Power rules mercilessly when life is on
the table, then buries the remains with
forgotten silence.
What is to be done? To balance the scale
Nothing my friend. Nothing indeed.

Help me I'm falling

I'm feeling weak

What can I do

to keep on loving you?

My heart belong to you

But he's always on my mind

How many people will die tonight?

Will you always come back to me?

You could've asked
Why did you assume
That I would say no
I didn't want you

You could've asked
To see what I'd say
That I would be your
At least one time today

Take my heart's love
And throw it away
To live life alone
The rest of your days

We'll Be Traveling Down "Old Guilt Highway"

If you take a lover, you better beware
I'm telling you that you better take care
They'll try to take your body for their very own
And pull you tight, if they think that you'll roam
So don't try to throw that trip my way
Or we'll be traveling down Old Guilt Highway
Take the time to notice
What you think you own
Let me tell
They won't ever leave you alone

I have to tell you baby
I ain't no adulterer
But if you hold me any tighter
I think I will burst

Give me a wishing well
I want to make a wish
I want to bait my hook
But I ain't lookin for a fish
I throw my coins down
Deep and low
And wish your love
Would take me home
Wish me into your arms
Where I'll find your charms
Wish me into your space
Where I'll find your grace

My honest soul
has never been in want
It has always known
it has a home
Waiting expectantly
to see me again
It is the one truth
that never dies
Forever and ever and ever
Amen

We bristled with joy
For the new baby boy

We brought him our love
And a toy from above
He blossoms with valor
For now and everafter +

I'm Trouble with a capital T
And if you don't believe it
Just try me and you'll see

I'm Trouble at loving
And living honestly

I'm Trouble at everything
That seems to fit in between

And as far as you can see
I'm Trouble at feeling

And flying straight
I'll never be

So get out of my way
That's all there is for me

Headlights and highway
Is forever right with me

So do yourself a favor
Play your cards right
And walk or run away

Or you'll be
In Trouble as far as You can see

And that's okay with me
Because misery loves company

I can't do this anymore
Why do you make me feel like running away?
Why do you hurt me so much?
Why are you exactly like another person who hurts me?
Why have you continued to lie to me?
Why do you talk behind my back?
Why is there no loyalty?
Why are you so empty?
Why don't you quit hurting me today.

Done
Done
done
not on the same page
not on the same page
Done
Done

Alas, all is not lost
You will meet again
as all things are possible
with true faith
in our just and loving Father
Our spiritual guide beyond
the fleeting material existences
We have known
The Kingdom is come to be




You are the perfect, perfect daughter
Says the Mother Great Spirit



Great Son: "This world is only a bridge;
You may pass over it, but you should not think to build a
dwelling place upon it."

"My disciples must not only cease to do evil but learn to do well; You must not only be cleansed from all conscious sin, but you must refuse to harbor even the feelings of guilt. If you confess your sins, they are forgiven; Therefore must you maintain a conscience void of offense."

I'm having troubles
figuring things out
It seems you don't see who I am
won't
can't
It's lonely
to hide amongst
those
who
surround
this

My name is not Docile Bird
it is Fighting Hawk wishing to see through the darkness
when I walk a stranger's path
I will see much I wouldn't see
So be grateful for who you love
because we won't be around for long
And love them no matter what's done wrong

He Said: "But hearken to me all of you. It is not that which enters the mouth that spiritually defiles the man, but rather that which proceeds out of the mouth and from the heart."

But even the apostles failed to grasp the meaning of His words, for Simon Peter also asked Him: "Lest some of your hearers be unnecessarily offended, would you explain to us the meaning of those words?"

And then said Jesus to Peter, "Are you also hard of understanding? Know you that not every plant which my heavenly Father has not planted shall be rooted up? Turn now your attention to those who would know the truth. You cannot compel men to love the truth. Many of these teachers are blind guides. And you know that, if the blind lead the blind, both shall fall into the pit. But hearken while I tell you the truth concerning those things which morally defile and spiritually contaminate men. I declare it is not that which enters the body through the mouth or gains access to the mind through the eyes and ears, that defiles the man. Man is only defiled by that evil which finds expression in the words and deeds of such unholy persons. Do you not know it is from the heart that there come forth evil thoughts, wicked projects of murder, theft, and adulteries, together with jealousy, pride, anger, revenge, railings, and false witness? And it is just such things that defile men and not that they eat bread with ceremoniously unclean hands."

"Salvation is a matter of clean hearts rather than of clean hands."

1. Sun (Sunday)
2. Moon (Monday)
3. Mars (Tuesday)
4. Mercury (Wednesday)
5. Jupiter (Thursday)
6. Venus (Friday)
7. Saturn (Saturday)

1. Red
2. Orange
3. Yellow
4. Green
5. Blue
6. Indigo
7. Violet
8. Silver
9. Gold

One piece of land does not make you holy

No matter what level of misdirection one is operating under (prep)

The earth will remain "un-owned"

Get to work making every inlet divine

The Fool: Upright; Unexpected and unplanned; New cycle
Reversed: Major problems from reckless actions

Magician: Strength of will
Reversed: Weakness of will

High Priestess: Intuitive insight
Reversed: Emotional instability

Empress: Fertility
Reversed: Over-protectiveness

Emperor: Will-power
Reversed: Immaturity, weakness

High Priest: Good advice
Reversed: Misinformation

Lovers: Time of choice
Reversed: Severe temptation

Chariot: Success
Reversed: Egocentricity

Justice: Act of judgement
Reversed: Injustice

Hermit: Need to retire
Reversed: Refusal to listen

Wheel of Fortune: Commencement of new cycle
Reversed: Turn for the worse

Fortitude: Opportunity
Reversed: Defeat or surrender

Hanged Man: Ability to adapt
Reversed: Overreliance on the mind

Death: Unexpected major change
Reversed: Willful aspect of destiny

Temperance: Success through careful control
Reversed: Opposition by ineptitude

Devil: Hidden forces at work
Reversed: Lust for power

Tower: Unfairness
Reversed: Self-undoing

Moon: Crisis of faith
Reversed: Failure of nerve

Sun: Success and achievement against all odds
Reversed: Misadjustment which ends in failure

Judgement: Joy in accomplishment
Reversed: Loss, guilt

World: Summing up a question
Reversed: Stagnation, failure of will

Cups: Loving emotions

Swords: Struggle, enmity

Wands: Fire, energy

Coins/Pentacles: Materialism

1's-Can be strong forces for goood. However egos can tend to predominate. Ambition, personal energy, self-advancement

2's-Femininity, often indicates followers, not a leader. Easy-going; placid; over-secretive

3's-Number of integration; harmony & wholeness. Adaptable, popular; fast-thinking

4's-Tend to proceed slowly; eventually achieving all they want; reliability; steady application

5's-Change & flexibility; is concerned with true selves; may be attracted to psychic things; mystery; change; inexplicable

6's-Is a combination of the good aspects of 3's & 4's; reliability, loyalty; abiding affection

7's-More interested in inner than outer selves; profound thought; creative imagination

8's-Tireless and dedicated worker thus achieves success; practical success; dedication; control

9's-Materially, intellectually, emotionally attains to great happiness; success; affection; giving

11's-First master number: High teacher; inspiration; giver

22's- Spiritual teacher; very nurturing

33's- Higher path; Higher self

The courage required to effect the conquest of nature and to transcend one's self is a courage that might succumb to the temptation of self-pride. The mortal who can transcend self might yield to the temptation to deify his own self-consciousness. The mortal dilemma consists in the double fact that man is in bondage to nature while at the same time he possesses a unique liberty-freedom of spiritual choice and action. On material levels he is triumphant over nature and over all things temporal and finite. Such a paradox is inseparable from temptation, potential evil, decisional errors, and when self be comes proud and arrogant, sin may evolve.

Minerals

Magnesium: Dental health;Holds calcium in tooth enamel, prevents caries; prevent muscle contraction; nerve impulse transmission
Get it in: sunflower seeds, navy beans, cashews, spinach, baked potatoes, tofu, halibut, arthichokes

Phosphorus (salts): Assists energy metabolism; is part of DNA & RNA
Get it in: sunflower seeds, sirloin steak, yogurt, cottage cheese, swiss cheese, cheddar cheese, milk, almonds

Calcium: Regulates muscle contraction; clotting of blood; secretion of hormones; may protect against hypertension; aid immunities
Get it in: all dairy products, tofu, almonds, sardines w/bones, spinach, broccoli
Factors inhibiting calcium absorption: lack of stomach acid, Vitamin D deficiency, high phorphorus intake, high fiber diet, diet high in Phytates (nuts, seeds, grains) and Oxalates (beets, rhubarb, spinach)

Potassium: Maintains normal fluid & electrolyte balance; appears to prevent & correct hypertension.
Get it in: green beans, avocadoes, sweet potatoes, baked potatoes w/skin, banana, strawberries, cod, artichokes, watermelon

Vitamin K: Acts primarily in blood clotting; participates in the synthesis of bone proteins
Get it in: bacterial synthesis in GI tract, leafy greens, cabbage type vegetables, milk, eggs

Vitamin E: Acts mainly as an antioxidant
Get it in: sweet potatoes, sunflower seeds, wheat germ oil, soybean oil, cashews, canola oil, peanut butter

the King of Pain
he'll make you cry
the King of Pain
you'll wish you'd die
the King of Pain
he'll make complete
sorrow, suffering, bitter sweet


Franchise nothing
all is complete
take away the pain I say
Find a way to live again
Free yourself with
faith in goodness, truth and love
Pull away from
hate and then
learn a way to live again

I want to love others be close with them
But in my heart and memories there
lies a wall built firmly
Which I fear to peek over lest
the attack rages on
I walk backwards each time
and crawl in the hole of
safe solitude within the known
I am weak within my own self
Left out of my own life
Shared by few truly cared by less
I do beat my head against the wall
with angry fear for my life
which I guard in ignorant selfishness
I don't want to see the pain
therefore I miss the beauty in all it's glory
I am afraid to view the hurt
While the truth blindly passes my eyes
I cringe in the light of injustice
As goodness falls into grey



Post my bones
upon a cross
prop my head
ever forward
into peace and peace of mind.

The absence of needs
is the greatest possession.


Our Father who is in Heaven
Hallowed be your name,
Your kingdom come; your will be done
On Earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our bread for tomorrow
Refresh our souls with the water of life
And forgive us every one our debts
As we also have forgiven our debtors.
Save us in temptation, deliver us from evil
And increasingly make us perfect
like yourself.

Shower Now er
Put the clothes Where they goes
The pursuit of
Beauty
is not worth the sacrifice of balance

You have been the ideal host to me
I have been the ideal guest
I have been the ideal host to yours
You have been the ideal guest to my talents


01-22-03 Dream journal
A dream about souls making agreements prior to life, about helping each other out when they are stuck in a rut. By helping or seemingly hurting, but stepphing in when certain cues or omission of cues appear. Starting the dialogue and duty agreed to previously.


Alexander Dumas

Copernicus Yellow


Movies I like

Goodbye Charlie

Perils of Pauline w/Pat Boone

Brass Bottle

Westward the Women

If a Man Answers

I'l Rather Be Rich


Don Knotts
How to Frame a Figg
Shakiet Gun in the West
Reluctant Astronaut
The Love God?
The Ghost and Mr. Chicken

You are the tortoise
I am the hare

I am artist
You are aristocrat

I am lover
You are politician

Do you know how much he hates me? He hates me so much, that he entertains plans of orchestrating suffering in me to a staggering degree of loss, and self-questioning doubt of all that is. It is in his plans to degrade my person to all who are strangers to me, as well as acquaintances, friends and family. His range of hurt he will connive could only be described as iniquitous evil as to how it will scrub my face in the dirt of human shame and horror. He hates me to a degree which would have me lifted up only to slam me down so hard as to break my body and my will. He wishes to zap my strength with his lies of love, trust and loyalty, so all orientation and order may fly from me amongst the truth. He chooses to hurt me behind closed doors, telling hidden secrets of my weaknesses to his prey, to laud them by lowering me while I am not present. He shames me with the honesty his body shows. I am shamed, to hurt, to see no love. Not mine does he wish for, though he plays me, so he may live another day to hate me. To love me would be to free me, but the only thing he loves is to hate me.

Are you familiar with the words "legal action"?

Quirky unprofessional outbursts

Judgemental shortsightedness
Inconsistent childish comments

Moody

Racist, sexist, agist

threatening

inappropriate comments

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even when he helps by making the
bed one Saturday morning, well it works out
that even though I know he is doing something
that should be done, I end up feeling bad
somehow, like oh, he shouldn't have to do that...
It's like he's changed me. He's very hard
on me always digging about mainly
fictional scenarios he's concocted. He does
whatever he wants, always. When he leaves
to go out, no one fights at all but when
he comes back, I become filled with
anxiety. Always having to put my shield
up. Constantly defending myself against
his character attacks, belittling abuse
threatening payment of somekind that
you will owe him.. I feel great
when he's gone, nervous and anxious when
he is here

Aries I AM RED Tiger, cats, pioneers
Taurus I HAVE BROWN, EARTHTONES Country house, banker
Gemini I THINK LIGHT IRIDESCENT City life, latest craze
Cancer I FEEL GREEN BLUE PINK Self-directed, individual
Leo I WILL ORANGE STRONG COLORS Manager
Virgo I ANALYZE PASTELS, KHAKI, BLACKBERRY Gardener, butler, teacher
Libra I BALANCE VIOLET GRAY BURGUNDY RED Pilot, attorney, judge
Scorpio I DESIRE BLACK WHITE CRIMSON Strange, introvert
Saggitarius I PERCEIVE STRONG SHINING BLUE RED moviegoer, entertainer
Capricorn I USE BLACK BROWN GREEN Gravedigger, gold prospector
Aquarius I KNOW LOUD SHRILL COLORS Researcher, Robinson Crusoe
Pisces I BELIEVE SEAGREEN RAINBOW Pastor, physician, lover


I'm all used up

See & do things on all levels
the pivotal point is clarity about one's personal needs
This also ensures that possessive jealousy & fears
of loss do not become too powerful
You need to make sure that:
material (possessions) wealth
&
spiritual ( love fulfillment) wealth
remain in harmony

HEAD~HANDS~HEART~FEET
think-manifest-care-do

Family is the master civilizer


No human emotion or impulse, when unbridled and overindulged can produce so much harm and sorrow as this powerful sex urge. Intelligent submission of this impulse to the regulations of society is the supreme test of the actuality of any civilization. Self-control, more and more self-control, is the ever-increasing demand of advancing mankind.
Secrecy, insincerity, and hypocrisy may obscure sex problems, but they do not provide solutions, nor do they advance ethics.

Will modern woman respond to this great achievement of social liberation with idleness, indifferences, barrenness and infidelity? Today in the 21st century, woman is undergoing the crucial test of her long world existence.

While the sexes never can hope fully to understand each other, they are effectively complementary, and though cooperation is often more or less personally antagonistic, it is capable of maintaining and reproducing society.

The family is man's greatest purely human achievement. Combining as it does, the evolution of the biologic relations of male and female, with the social relations of husband and wife.

Family life is the progenitor of TRUE MORALITY,
the ancestor of the consciousness of
loyalty of duty.

The hunger of the soul cannot be
satisified with physical pleasures; the love
of home and children is not augmented
by the unwise pursuit of pleasure.

When it come to sex and most men
It's not about whether it's love
It's about whether she'll let him.

Oh the dinner plate of love
with you as the main course

city me country me
the battle continues

TRUTH & INTEGRITY
ALWAYS WORK TO MY
BENEFIT!!


Be truthful to all things
Especially yourself
Touch the moment, be in its truth
Live in the now, frame its
house in your heart


Drink a little whiskey
Drink a little wine
Gonna have a real good time

THE WEAPONS WERE ALREADY PAYED FOR

Your actions betray the feelings
I have for you

I wish to believe what you tell me
but my heart has been left empty too
many times

You push me away when all I can
do is cry for you to hold me
Pity me not. You are vanquished by choice

If I knock on the door who will
answer it? The one who is there

I want to forget you exist but I am
using you for my illusory world
I will focus on the softness of
the pillow you are for me knowing
all along it is not real. Wanting it just the same.

I am made of marshmallow, to
sweet and gooey

Do not ire the choices of others
my sweetness, celebrate your own
Make sure they are made pure as gold

I love March for her windiness
Solid assurity she blows this day

Sexuality: God gives each soul
the ability to "really" love personally
and physically one distinct portion
of the population. To explore them
in close perspective through the constant
attractive qualities of physical and
emotional love. Before you enter this world
you are given the choice because you are
allowed only one. The focus is strong
directed pointed.

I love you
Even though it has been a disappointing time
When the times are good it is fun
And an encompassing time
I wish for those good times to overtake
the hours of bad times
But the cycle of bad overrides the good
more often than not
Short memory may be the blame
I don't know; weakness may be to blame
What is good?
T'is to equate love with sex?
T'is to equate sex with false needs?
T'is to be loved only to be hated?
or maybe just to be used and then tossed
to the garbage heap?
And forgo then, all the times of smiles
once again to be eaten alive over
and over and over again.
What must be given up in exchange
for this false life of torture to end?
Your true self; Your head held up;
Your spirit; Your body; the world
Recede; melt away; all gone, the
price of continuing is high, so high

He summarized his instructions
up to that time regarding these
matters as:

LOVE YOUR ENEMIES
Remember the moral claims of human brotherhood
THE FUTILITY OF EVIL
A wrong is not righted by vengeance. Do not make the mistake of fighting evil with its own weapons.
HAVE FAITH
Confidence in the eventual triumph of divine justice AND ETERNAL GOODNESS

MAY THE WILL OF MY PARADISE FATHER PREVAIL

It is said that "the master reveals himself in limiting himself" The more qualites are based on:
Excluding or disregarding
the more irritating or even disruptive
and disturbing will be the effect.
Whatever lies beyond your reach makes
itself very clearly felt in this phase
Concern about difficulties is ideal for finding
good solutions

dul-cet (dul sit) adj. 1. Pleasing to the ear; melodious b. Having a soothing and agreeable quality.
2. Archaic: sweet to the taste


I'M HAVING A HARD TIME
SWIMMING IN THE SEA OF SINCERITY
MY SINCERITY BANK ACCOUNT IS IN THE RED
SINCERITY IS A DUBIOUS QUALITY
A VERY MOMENTOUS & TIME HONORED SUBSTANCE
YES I AM SINCERE NOW I'M SURE OF THAT

A DUDE AND HIS DUDEEN
LONGING TO BE FREED AGAIN
DUMBFOUNDED BY THE DUMBWAITER
HE AIN'T DULL OR A DUMMY
JUST TEMPORARILY SPEECHLESS
IN A WORLD NOT SELF-PROPELLED
HE MIGHT INFLICT A GAPING WOUND
IN YOUR HEART OR YOUR SOUL
ON A NOT BRIGHT OR VERY DIM DAY
SO MAYBE YOU SHOULD JUST STAY AWAY
THE POINT IS NOT SHARP OR BRISK
JUST EXPRESSED BY THE RIGID DECLARER
AND THE DRAMATIC DUEL PLAYED OUT
SO SECRETLY IN THE SERVICE OF ANOTHER
THE DUM-DUM BULLET MAY JUST RICOCHET
WHILE THE LOVING ONE WILL DUCK AWAY

But when Jesus had finished his earth life,
this name of the Father had been so
revealed that the Master, who was the
Father incarnate, could truly say:

I AM THE BREAD OF LIFE
I AM THE LIVING WATER
I AM THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD
I AM THE DESIRE OF ALL AGES
I AM THE OPEN DOOR TO ETERNAL SALVATION
I AM THE REALITY OF ENDLESS LIFE
I AM THE GOOD SHEPHERD
I AM THE PATHWAY OF INFINITE PERFECTION
I AM THE RESURRECTION AND THE LIFE
I AM THE SECRET OF ETERNAL SURVIVAL
I AM THE WAY, THE TRUTH, AND THE LIFE
I AM THE INFINITE FATHER OF MY FINITE CHILDREN
I AM THE TRUE VINE; YOUR ARE THE BRANCHES
I AM THE HOPE OF ALL WHO KNOW THE LIVING TRUTH
I AM THE LIVING BRIDGE FROM ONE WORLD TO ANOTHER
I AM THE LIVING LINK BETWEEN TIME AND ETERNITY

Thus did Jesus enlarge the living revelation of the name of God to all generations. As divine love reveals the nature of God, eternal truth discloses his name in ever enlarging proportions.

Gives me strength
Shows me my faith
There is time for God in this busy world


COMBINED MIND



The Outlaw and The Slut

They both married sluts
She was one before they got married
And he's been one ever since

I got off the couch when you left
to get some sleep in bed
Our lonely bed

You chose another but you don't
make enough money to
be her husband. You can only
diddle with her in the dark
behind secrets and hidden dark
pathways, unfulfilled beginnings.

The Kundalini
Snake bite
Either way
It's up to you
Don't teach hate to get off
Don't teach eating another alive
The love you make
will save and heal




Your animal is running your life
Caress yourself find the hidden
honey spirit

There is a way of loving yourself
with tenderness which will amount
in the same or better response
to beating yourself

or any references to changing the
way "your sex" takes place results
in explosive responses of
loud defensisms instead of a welcome ear

You scare me when you say:
"It's all I have"
"It's all I have"
in reference to masturbation or sex
in general. That doesn't seem sane.

300,000 B.C.- Early Race's Moral Code

THE FATHER'S WAY

1. You shall not fear nor serve any God but the Father of all.
2. You shall not disobey the Father's Son, the world's ruler, nor show disrespect to his superhuman associates.
3. You shall not speak a lie when called before the judges of the people.
4. You shall not kill men, women, or children.
5. You shall not steal your neighbor's goods or cattle.
6. You shall not touch your friend's wife.
7. You shall not show disrespect to your parents or to the elders of the tribe.





ALL THINGS ARE WORKS IN PROGRESS

BEAUTY, rhythm & harmony are intellectually associated & spiritually akin

TRUTH, fact & relationship are intellectually inseparable & associated with the philosophic concepts of beauty.

GOODNESS, Righteousness & justice are philosophically interrelated and spirituall bound up together with living truth & divine beauty


But every human should remember:
Many ambitions to excel which tantalize mortals in the flesh will not persist with those same mortals in the morontia & spirit careers. The ascending morontians learn to socialize their former purely selfish longings & egoistic ambitions. Nevertheless, those things which you so earnestly longed to do on earth & which circumstances so persistently denied you, if after acquiring true mota insight in the morontia career, you still desire to do, then will you certainly be granted every opportunity fully to satisfy your long-cherished desires.

Take It Easy On the Roads These Days written 3/03/2000

I have direct experience with which I am about to speak and I have also noticed same reinforced to myself over the past few months.
Starting back in 1985 and all the years that follow, we have experienced what was termed in hindsight as a 2nd baby boom.
Approximately as many children were born beginning in those years as the first baby boom.
Now we are at the start of a new era concerning this boom. And if some of you will think back over your driving experiences during the last few months or so, you may have noticed but not understood this phenomenon of which I am speaking.
These 2nd boomers are now learning to drive. Hello! They are everywhere! The point I am trying to make is to ask us to remember this fact as we drive down the road "these days". There are a significant number of student drivers sharing our roads. It is easy to spot them. Lots of brakelights, more swerving and slow turns. A lot of times you may also spot a slightly fear stricken parent passenger baring white knuckles, clenched jaw, rapidly graying temples.
I am reminding drivers of these student drivers in a day when a lot of us have begun to take driving for granted and expect others to drive with the same finesse, quality and style as ourselves. Unfortunately, as most of us know, that is a view that has never been based in reality. People's driving styles are as different as their personality. But that is not the point I am trying to make. Road rage develops when we lose sight of the fact that we can only control our own behaviour. Experienced drivers need to remember that these less-experienced kids are out there now in increasing numbers. They are learning to be good drivers and we can help them succeed by our own example. Show them how good drivers perform behind the wheel in various situations.
If you see a vehicle apparently not driving as competently as you expect, fall back, take a little notice and if you must pass, do it with care and caution. There are indeed more kids out there on the roads these days.

Munro:
When will the government stop interfering in private business?



Disloyal; betrayer of trust & confidence; unsavory;
distasteful lifestyle bordering on brain damage.

Follower of dogmatic sophistries
bordering on deliberate sin

Denyer of universal realities of goodness, truth & beauty

Unable at the skills of glorious
self-maintenance; avid gossiper & judgemental sentencer & executioner
of unrightous verdicts; personality disintegration predicating
unfertile soil.

I forgot how to have fun
because there is too much work to do

What do you learn from the good times?

I learn that a soul at rest gains a lot for future work.
Denial of work or rest twists the soul.

A nail hit too hard
too many
times wrong
becomes useful
for nothing
or no one.

Bible
1 Peter
2 Andrew
3 James
4 John
5 Philip
6 Bartholomew
7 Thomas
8 James
9 Simon
10Jude Thaddeus
11Matthew
12Judas Iscariot

12 Apostles
1 Andrew, the First Chosen
2 Simon Peter
3 James Zebedee
4 John Zebedee
5 Philip, the Curious
6 Nathaniel, the Honest
7 Matthew Levi
8 Thomas Didymus
9 James Alpheus
10 Judus Alpheus
11 Simon, the Zealot
12 Judas Iscariot No exclusion except by your own choice




Urantia feeds my soul
" aerates my heart
" aids my courage
" bares my face

grow soul
breathe Heart
fortify courage
world see me!