I want to love others be close with them
But in my heart and memories there
lies a wall built firmly
Which I fear to peek over lest
the attack rages on
I walk backwards each time
and crawl in the hole of
safe solitude within the known
I am weak within my own self
Left out of my own life
Shared by few truly cared by less
I do beat my head against the wall
with angry fear for my life
which I guard in ignorant selfishness
I don't want to see the pain
therefore I miss the beauty in all it's glory
I am afraid to view the hurt
While the truth blindly passes my eyes
I cringe in the light of injustice
As goodness falls into grey



Post my bones
upon a cross
prop my head
ever forward
into peace and peace of mind.