Alas, all is not lost
You will meet again
as all things are possible
with true faith
in our just and loving Father
Our spiritual guide beyond
the fleeting material existences
We have known
The Kingdom is come to be




You are the perfect, perfect daughter
Says the Mother Great Spirit



Great Son: "This world is only a bridge;
You may pass over it, but you should not think to build a
dwelling place upon it."

"My disciples must not only cease to do evil but learn to do well; You must not only be cleansed from all conscious sin, but you must refuse to harbor even the feelings of guilt. If you confess your sins, they are forgiven; Therefore must you maintain a conscience void of offense."

I'm having troubles
figuring things out
It seems you don't see who I am
won't
can't
It's lonely
to hide amongst
those
who
surround
this

My name is not Docile Bird
it is Fighting Hawk wishing to see through the darkness
when I walk a stranger's path
I will see much I wouldn't see
So be grateful for who you love
because we won't be around for long
And love them no matter what's done wrong

He Said: "But hearken to me all of you. It is not that which enters the mouth that spiritually defiles the man, but rather that which proceeds out of the mouth and from the heart."

But even the apostles failed to grasp the meaning of His words, for Simon Peter also asked Him: "Lest some of your hearers be unnecessarily offended, would you explain to us the meaning of those words?"

And then said Jesus to Peter, "Are you also hard of understanding? Know you that not every plant which my heavenly Father has not planted shall be rooted up? Turn now your attention to those who would know the truth. You cannot compel men to love the truth. Many of these teachers are blind guides. And you know that, if the blind lead the blind, both shall fall into the pit. But hearken while I tell you the truth concerning those things which morally defile and spiritually contaminate men. I declare it is not that which enters the body through the mouth or gains access to the mind through the eyes and ears, that defiles the man. Man is only defiled by that evil which finds expression in the words and deeds of such unholy persons. Do you not know it is from the heart that there come forth evil thoughts, wicked projects of murder, theft, and adulteries, together with jealousy, pride, anger, revenge, railings, and false witness? And it is just such things that defile men and not that they eat bread with ceremoniously unclean hands."

"Salvation is a matter of clean hearts rather than of clean hands."

1. Sun (Sunday)
2. Moon (Monday)
3. Mars (Tuesday)
4. Mercury (Wednesday)
5. Jupiter (Thursday)
6. Venus (Friday)
7. Saturn (Saturday)

1. Red
2. Orange
3. Yellow
4. Green
5. Blue
6. Indigo
7. Violet
8. Silver
9. Gold

One piece of land does not make you holy

No matter what level of misdirection one is operating under (prep)

The earth will remain "un-owned"

Get to work making every inlet divine

The Fool: Upright; Unexpected and unplanned; New cycle
Reversed: Major problems from reckless actions

Magician: Strength of will
Reversed: Weakness of will

High Priestess: Intuitive insight
Reversed: Emotional instability

Empress: Fertility
Reversed: Over-protectiveness

Emperor: Will-power
Reversed: Immaturity, weakness

High Priest: Good advice
Reversed: Misinformation

Lovers: Time of choice
Reversed: Severe temptation

Chariot: Success
Reversed: Egocentricity

Justice: Act of judgement
Reversed: Injustice

Hermit: Need to retire
Reversed: Refusal to listen

Wheel of Fortune: Commencement of new cycle
Reversed: Turn for the worse

Fortitude: Opportunity
Reversed: Defeat or surrender

Hanged Man: Ability to adapt
Reversed: Overreliance on the mind

Death: Unexpected major change
Reversed: Willful aspect of destiny

Temperance: Success through careful control
Reversed: Opposition by ineptitude

Devil: Hidden forces at work
Reversed: Lust for power

Tower: Unfairness
Reversed: Self-undoing

Moon: Crisis of faith
Reversed: Failure of nerve

Sun: Success and achievement against all odds
Reversed: Misadjustment which ends in failure

Judgement: Joy in accomplishment
Reversed: Loss, guilt

World: Summing up a question
Reversed: Stagnation, failure of will

Cups: Loving emotions

Swords: Struggle, enmity

Wands: Fire, energy

Coins/Pentacles: Materialism

1's-Can be strong forces for goood. However egos can tend to predominate. Ambition, personal energy, self-advancement

2's-Femininity, often indicates followers, not a leader. Easy-going; placid; over-secretive

3's-Number of integration; harmony & wholeness. Adaptable, popular; fast-thinking

4's-Tend to proceed slowly; eventually achieving all they want; reliability; steady application

5's-Change & flexibility; is concerned with true selves; may be attracted to psychic things; mystery; change; inexplicable

6's-Is a combination of the good aspects of 3's & 4's; reliability, loyalty; abiding affection

7's-More interested in inner than outer selves; profound thought; creative imagination

8's-Tireless and dedicated worker thus achieves success; practical success; dedication; control

9's-Materially, intellectually, emotionally attains to great happiness; success; affection; giving

11's-First master number: High teacher; inspiration; giver

22's- Spiritual teacher; very nurturing

33's- Higher path; Higher self

The courage required to effect the conquest of nature and to transcend one's self is a courage that might succumb to the temptation of self-pride. The mortal who can transcend self might yield to the temptation to deify his own self-consciousness. The mortal dilemma consists in the double fact that man is in bondage to nature while at the same time he possesses a unique liberty-freedom of spiritual choice and action. On material levels he is triumphant over nature and over all things temporal and finite. Such a paradox is inseparable from temptation, potential evil, decisional errors, and when self be comes proud and arrogant, sin may evolve.

Minerals

Magnesium: Dental health;Holds calcium in tooth enamel, prevents caries; prevent muscle contraction; nerve impulse transmission
Get it in: sunflower seeds, navy beans, cashews, spinach, baked potatoes, tofu, halibut, arthichokes

Phosphorus (salts): Assists energy metabolism; is part of DNA & RNA
Get it in: sunflower seeds, sirloin steak, yogurt, cottage cheese, swiss cheese, cheddar cheese, milk, almonds

Calcium: Regulates muscle contraction; clotting of blood; secretion of hormones; may protect against hypertension; aid immunities
Get it in: all dairy products, tofu, almonds, sardines w/bones, spinach, broccoli
Factors inhibiting calcium absorption: lack of stomach acid, Vitamin D deficiency, high phorphorus intake, high fiber diet, diet high in Phytates (nuts, seeds, grains) and Oxalates (beets, rhubarb, spinach)

Potassium: Maintains normal fluid & electrolyte balance; appears to prevent & correct hypertension.
Get it in: green beans, avocadoes, sweet potatoes, baked potatoes w/skin, banana, strawberries, cod, artichokes, watermelon

Vitamin K: Acts primarily in blood clotting; participates in the synthesis of bone proteins
Get it in: bacterial synthesis in GI tract, leafy greens, cabbage type vegetables, milk, eggs

Vitamin E: Acts mainly as an antioxidant
Get it in: sweet potatoes, sunflower seeds, wheat germ oil, soybean oil, cashews, canola oil, peanut butter

the King of Pain
he'll make you cry
the King of Pain
you'll wish you'd die
the King of Pain
he'll make complete
sorrow, suffering, bitter sweet


Franchise nothing
all is complete
take away the pain I say
Find a way to live again
Free yourself with
faith in goodness, truth and love
Pull away from
hate and then
learn a way to live again

I want to love others be close with them
But in my heart and memories there
lies a wall built firmly
Which I fear to peek over lest
the attack rages on
I walk backwards each time
and crawl in the hole of
safe solitude within the known
I am weak within my own self
Left out of my own life
Shared by few truly cared by less
I do beat my head against the wall
with angry fear for my life
which I guard in ignorant selfishness
I don't want to see the pain
therefore I miss the beauty in all it's glory
I am afraid to view the hurt
While the truth blindly passes my eyes
I cringe in the light of injustice
As goodness falls into grey



Post my bones
upon a cross
prop my head
ever forward
into peace and peace of mind.

The absence of needs
is the greatest possession.


Our Father who is in Heaven
Hallowed be your name,
Your kingdom come; your will be done
On Earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our bread for tomorrow
Refresh our souls with the water of life
And forgive us every one our debts
As we also have forgiven our debtors.
Save us in temptation, deliver us from evil
And increasingly make us perfect
like yourself.

Shower Now er
Put the clothes Where they goes
The pursuit of
Beauty
is not worth the sacrifice of balance

You have been the ideal host to me
I have been the ideal guest
I have been the ideal host to yours
You have been the ideal guest to my talents


01-22-03 Dream journal
A dream about souls making agreements prior to life, about helping each other out when they are stuck in a rut. By helping or seemingly hurting, but stepphing in when certain cues or omission of cues appear. Starting the dialogue and duty agreed to previously.


Alexander Dumas

Copernicus Yellow


Movies I like

Goodbye Charlie

Perils of Pauline w/Pat Boone

Brass Bottle

Westward the Women

If a Man Answers

I'l Rather Be Rich


Don Knotts
How to Frame a Figg
Shakiet Gun in the West
Reluctant Astronaut
The Love God?
The Ghost and Mr. Chicken

You are the tortoise
I am the hare

I am artist
You are aristocrat

I am lover
You are politician

Do you know how much he hates me? He hates me so much, that he entertains plans of orchestrating suffering in me to a staggering degree of loss, and self-questioning doubt of all that is. It is in his plans to degrade my person to all who are strangers to me, as well as acquaintances, friends and family. His range of hurt he will connive could only be described as iniquitous evil as to how it will scrub my face in the dirt of human shame and horror. He hates me to a degree which would have me lifted up only to slam me down so hard as to break my body and my will. He wishes to zap my strength with his lies of love, trust and loyalty, so all orientation and order may fly from me amongst the truth. He chooses to hurt me behind closed doors, telling hidden secrets of my weaknesses to his prey, to laud them by lowering me while I am not present. He shames me with the honesty his body shows. I am shamed, to hurt, to see no love. Not mine does he wish for, though he plays me, so he may live another day to hate me. To love me would be to free me, but the only thing he loves is to hate me.